I have been taking care of a new creative project. Plenty of energy and enthusiasm being spent. Plenty of productive time making a new challenge. Bouncing my ideas off others inside a coaching group. But whenever I start a new journey of making, I have discovered myself becoming angry.
How come this happen? What’s this anger about? What’s going on?
My mentor i were discussing this. She wondered aloud this thought: “It sounds like the tender spots are where you stand angry”… yeah. Very tender. The anger is telling me something.
Finding that it is not easy to maintain a job picking anger throughout, I needed to find away out to be effective “through” or “around” the anger. So, I distract myself with painting, stories, dancing… something creative, but more mundane plus a bit mindless. This creative energy frees my mind so that I’m able to “trick” my anger into thinking I am busy to things.
After i make this happen I call it “spinning”. Spinning reminds me in the stories from the spinning wheel where I’m able to get busy creating (like the wool about the wheel). This opens the door to metaphor and takes me from my should “control” a job.
When I began drawing this picture… of the spinning wheel… I believed of “turning straw to gold”. I became reminded again with the story of Rumpelstilskin. You understand, the main one… the millers daughter, the father says “she can spin straw into gold” to the king… and the king would like to check out this… and if she cannot, she is going to be put to death… ? Then, an unusual little man appears. He tells her he can spin straw into gold… but it’ll be at an expense to her.
I discovered the story and browse several versions of computer. It resonated beside me. However, as I usually do, I could to logically “organize” the storyline. This caused me to get more frustrated, as I has not been seeing or feeling what this story was trying to let me know.
So I went back to my “dream capture” work. I just read the storyline as though it were a goal I had created had. Then, I did the next:
Listed out every one of the characters
Listed the “key words” inside the story that resonated with me at night
Re-read each word and wrote what that word meat in my experience during my current situation
And then… I started to get noticable what are the story was telling me. Here’s what I came across
The miscroscopic man (Rumplestilskin)=anger/creative fire/naming
The miller’s daughter=rest/creativity/giving
The king=accountability
Spnning wheel=creating/spinning/asking for help
The baby=creation (project, artwork… )
While all these “characters” comes with a independent role, All the characters create one “psyche” to me. Many of us have of those qualities within us.
In order to create something, it will require much energy… and rest is additionally needed. We have to give of ourselves and request for help.
Ultimately, an infant exists and we will not quit. It’s our “creation” and we are surprised about might know about have made. Also, the required steps to obtain there.
What did I learn?
That this story resonates with me at night. Also, this story will repeat itself over and over as I still create, rest, people for assistance and finished a job. Though Rumpelstilskin stomps himself into the ground at the end of the storyline, that little man is going to be back… and then suddenly time, I’ll know his name.
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